The world seems pretty messy right now.

Maybe it’s an election year? Or news travels quickly because of technology, people are finally fed up with the status quo, or I’ve gotten older and pay more attention to these things. I’m not entirely sure why. And I’m not sure that matters.

Whatever the reason, I’m thankful for it.

It feels like we’re living during a crucial moment in history, where lots of things are shifting. Big things. Because important conversations are being had or ignored; it feels raw and real.

It feels like it’s finally time to speak up, because it’s socially acceptable to help someone reach a new conclusion – especially when they’re no longer willing to be ignorant about what’s going on. I like that. Honesty and realness.

It’s like we’ve all been repressed for a long time, staying too politically correct, and we’re ready to let loose. The lion inside the lamb is about to break free, y’all. It’s scary and real and wonderful.

And about time.

Funny enough, my professional life mirrors the messiness.

I’m at a significant crossroads, where I’ve learned enough technical stuff to feel ready for the next big step. Even though the next big steps terrify me, I feel brave enough to take them. And that’s significant.

Throughout my life, I’ve played the peacemaker. Extenuating circumstances taught me to keep my head down, work hard, and not make too much trouble. But, that’s in conflict with my nature.

Physically speaking, I’m very tall and can be quite loud. But I’m also a troublemaker who likes to push the envelope, innovate, and experiment with ideas. I’ve never been very patient with the status quo.

To wrap up this stream of consciousness …

I feel compelled to do something.

Since I’m a filmmaker, I feel compelled to make art that comments on the state of things. So I’m looking for ways to do that efficiently and swiftly.

I can’t do it alone. Nor would I want to, so I’m keeping an eye out. For what? I’m not sure. But I’ll know it when I see it.

In the meantime, I have a lot of work to finish so I can make space for these new stories to tell.